• die Kinderstation im AKH zu sehen.
• an seinem freien Tag angerufen zu werden um doch noch zum Dienst zu erscheinen.
• Irgendwie kein echtes Leben mehr zu haben, das nicht nur aus "ich-muss-jetzt-dorthin-fahren" besteht. Keine Menschen mehr zu sehen, die man früher so oft sah. Zeitweise deshalb andauernd das Gefühl haben, allein zu sein. Zeitweise deshalb das Gefühl haben, alle irgendwie zu verlieren.

(Part 1)

Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day,
to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.

Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?

The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The days get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.

I like songs about drifters - books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?

The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.

I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.

(by Modest Mouse)

08.00 Uhr: Dienstbeginn, Auto checken, Scheibenwaschanlage-Flüssigkeit-Zeug nachfüllen, Auto anmelden, Handy und Pager verteilen
08.00 - 09:20 Uhr: Lesen
09:20 - 09:45 Uhr: Zum Bankomat und Geld abheben. (während wir am Parkplatz der Sparkasse stehen, kommen die Leute aus der Kirche und gaffen auf das Rettungsauto - die Messe ist gerade aus.) Frühstück holen für Kollegen und uns selbst. Zeitung holen für Kollegen. Beim Zigarettenautomat stehenbleiben für Kollegen.
09:45 - 11:00 Uhr: Playstation 2: WWE SmackDown vs. Raw spielen
11:00 - 11:30 Uhr: Playstation 2: Irgendein Rally-Spiel spielen. Lesen.
11:45 - 12:10 Uhr: Stationärer Heimtransport einer Seniorin vom Krankenhaus zu einem 5 Kilometer entfernten Ort
12:00 - 12:30 Uhr: Mittagessen und Film holen
12:30 - 13:00 Uhr: Mittagessen
13:00 - 14:40 Uhr: Film ansehen
14:40 - 17:30 Uhr: Playstation 2: WWE SmackDown vs. Raw spielen
17:30: (vorzeitiger) Dienstschluss weil die Nachtmannschaft schon früher da war

Ja. Sinnvoller Tag. Na schon. Irgendwie. Leben retten und so weiter.